Monday, April 20, 2009

confused

Lately the tear glands are terribly sensitive....

why?

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Monday, January 12, 2009

just the two of us

Finding you is a treasure

Being with you is an endless blessing

Loving you and being loved in return is my life's worth

but

When two persons meet and decide to be together

So much love, so much happiness, so much laughters, so much smiles, so much hopes

and so do expectations and compromise

All blend into one.

I am happy...

I am sure we will always be alright...

but I do have my down moments too,

and so do you.




p.s: Never thought my tear glands still work pretty well ....

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

my everything

4 days with you are never enough
40 days with you are never enough
400 days with you are never enough
4000 days with you are never enough
...
not even 40000 days.

I just want to spend all my life and after life with you!

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Sunday, June 15, 2008

what a day...

The alarm was supposed to ring at 7.45am

but it didn't

and I was awaken by a morning call at 8.30am

which means...

I was left with around 30mins to get ready

at 9am I was at the hotel lobby

can't wait to be back!

but...

when I signed on my work position

doenkk.... steward's duty

which means that was my first time doing it

two meal service of lunch and refreshment

means six full carts and 2 half-carts for lunch

three and a half-cart for refreshment

load em!

man...there goes my first solo as a galley stewardess...

scary...stressful...tough...back-ache...so on

man, I survived

and learned alot despite everything that happened

just that it was sad that sometimes how you are the one to be 'blamed' for not doing things right when it was not really your wrongdoings

life goes on...

I'm stronger heh!

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Friday, February 15, 2008

hope you'd do fine

Dearie...

I know it hurts...

and no words can console you right now...

that's why I choose to keep silent...

but time heals...

just be strong!

Love ya :)

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Friday, February 01, 2008

stoopid flood

Dang....dang....dang....


Jakarta is in a HUGE mess, flood is everywhere. The airport was closed down for some time, the highways were buried under water... and my home-sweet home is now having that unwelcomed guest.

So sickening.... it has never entered my house before, literally. The most was just at the front yard where I found a dead fish before. Now, the water level is up to thigh and the electricity was cut. My parents and bro are still there....shietttt..... *huhuhuhu

Pic courtesy of Kompas.com




Wondering how tomorrow will be... coz it's already at waist level on the streets. Please...

For all the flood victims, be strong and take a good care of yourself ok!

For the government, isn't it another IMPORTANT sign to even start planning on a better city planning and management?

For everyone else, start taking good care of the mother earth *if you haven't done so* and keep up the great job *if you've started to do so*... your lives, your next generation's lives and your next next generation's lives lay on your hand.

We all can make a difference!!

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Friday, January 11, 2008

dream a little dream of me

When I dreamt of you that night...
I couldn't help but to continue my sleep smiling all the way
even when I had to return to Singapore and end my trip one day earlier...

Tonight...I wish the same way too *haha..
Sweet dreams all :)

I'm paxing to Christchurch. Let's test your Geography.
Which continent is Christchurch in?
Which country is it exactly?

Haha...just curious coz many people do not seem to know.
It's Australia. Christchurch is in New Zealand, a much nicer place than Australia itself in my humble opinion :)

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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

^*I)I_I^$$#

I wonder if I have already closed the book...

Apparently not yet is the answer...

coz everytime I see your face...

everytime I hear your name...

everytime those moments come...

I can't help but missing you...

and my heart beats faster...

but then it sinks...

and I don't know what to do...

do you?

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Monday, August 20, 2007

Somebody's Me

Hey Pong, thanks for the song. Love it to the max :)

Somebody's Me
by Enrique Iglesias.

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?

Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you were somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory

You, will you remember me?...
And before you set me free
Oh listen please


Lesson of the day: And as I miss someone dearly... there's always HOPE... maybe they miss me too or maybe I am someone's world *whatever will be will be... Que Sera Sera...

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

HOME

I am missing the feeling of having a real HOME.

Hm... see, I have been out of my real Home Sweet Home since I was 14. My sis and I were in Penang, Malaysia for our hi-skul education. We did not plan to study abroad at such an early age, but the political and security issue back in our home country forced us to fly away. So, there we were in a foreign land by ourselves.

We rented a room with the other 2 friends, and in total there were 6 of us in a house. Our auntie -landlady- stayed next door. She is a really nice person, I admit. We learned to be independent ever since, especially when I am the oldest one in the 'family' I also have to take care of my new siblings *haha and be responsible of them. Although we had the whole house for us, but the ground floor was used as an office in the morning. Yeah... it was more of a 'home' compared to some other accommodation that came after that, but it's still an incomplete 'home'.

So, four year after we first arrived in Penang, I graduated and was admitted to NTU - Singapore. Again, I had to spend another 4 years in the University. It was merely a room in NTU also, where I had to share the pantry and restroom with the other occupants.

Now, I am sharing a room with my sis. We rent a room in one of the HDB in Toa Payoh. It's a pretty small room for the two of us *or maybe coz I have too much things after my slightly over 4-year stay. We shared the pantry and the toilet. Most of the time, we choose to stay in our room and do our own things.

Hence, I am missing the feeling of having a real home.

A place where I can have my own room and decorate it nicely according to my style.
A place where I can cook whatever I want, and not just soup or noodles.
A place where I can have the TV for my own *hahaha*
A place where rules are meant to be broken
A place where I don't have to worry being kicked out or when the lease is going to expire
A place where I can sit in the living room comfortably without fear of someone coming in and scold me
A place where I don't have to listen to those calculative acts
A place where I can invite my friends along
A place where I can proudly say, "Hey... let's come to my place!"

I MISS MY HOME!

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Friday, August 17, 2007

HAPPY

Things start to come in and I love it.

So yeah... hope everything goes smoothly, hope everything falls into its place, and let's hope for the best.

My life is brilliant.

Dear PH, it's really really great to talk to you again *altho virtually* ... Am on the cloud nine now. Ochin kruta!

***

Random me...

TEN FAVORITES
01. televison show: Ally McBeal *hm.. but I also like Gylmore Girls, CSI, One Tree Hill, ...
02. flower: rose and tulip
03. color: maroon, brown, deep blue
04. sport: volleyball
05. food chain: Coca Suki *haha
06. drink: water without gas please... or Green tea
07. fruit: Orange, watermelon, peach
08. season: I like the colours of the dry leaves during fall :)
09. animal: puppies
10. city: Too many..

TEN FACTS
01. hometown: Medan, Jakarta, Penang-Msia, Singapore and Dnepropetrovsk-Ukraine *hihi
02. fruit u hate most: I don't think I ever dislike fruit that I hate them ^^v
03. hair length: short
04. hair style: er... refer to pic please
05. eye color: dark brown
06. shoe size: I have pretty huge pair of feet
07. mood: delighted, excited, bring it on
09. available: to who??
10. lefty/righty: rightie

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
01. have you ever been in love: yes
02. do you believe in love: can't agree no more
03. why did your last relationship fail? : coz it won't work if both hands do not clap together
04. have you ever been heartbroken: I suppose so
05. have you ever broken someone'sheart: I hope it was not on purpose -__-'
06. have you ever fallen for your bestfriend: they mite start as a friend, but once bestfriend... think it's hard to fall for em
07. have you ever loved someone but never told them: I'm not a 'vocal' girl
08. are you afraid of commitment: NO IDEA... maybe rain maybe snow, maybe yes maybe no
09. have you ever had a secret admirer: heh... how am I suppose to know if it's a secret?
10. do you believe in love at first sight: NUPE. It's more like Lust at first sight IMHO

THIS OR THAT
01. love or money: love
02. hard liquor or beer: I don't drink! well... not at all times hehe
03. Clubbing or pubbing: hm... can I choose live music?
04. one night stands or relationships: HEYLOOOO..... did I hear you?
05. televison or internet: internet
06. pepsi or coke: I try not to drink soda... but well, Pepsi tastes better
07. wild night out or romantic night in: Romantic night out?
08. colored or black and white pictures: I don't mind both. As long as it's a picture.. I love it!
09. phone or in person: I hate calling.
10. aim or myspace: none

TEN HAVE YOU EVERS
01. have you ever been caught sneaking out: never ever haha
02. have you ever skinny dipped: nope
03. have you ever done something you regret: think so. but no use fussing over it, just learn from experience
04. have you ever bungee jumped?: NOT YET. I hope one day I will
05. have you ever been on a houseboat: no..hiks hiks...
06. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: no also... *sigh
07. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt: yeap
10. have you ever been caught by your parents doing it?: what?

TEN EMOTIONS
01. are you missing someone right now: of course. Such a rhetorical question *wahaha
02. are you happy: I AM!!
03. are you talking to anyone right now: virtually yeah
04. message to the person you hate most at this moment: do I know you?
05. are you german: lha?
06. are you irish: doenk...
07. are you french: Oh My...
08. are you Italian: Geez...
09. are your parents still married: FOREVER
10. do you like someone right now: why not ^.*

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

it is a great day

It was a good day indeed and I am happy.

Hmph... let's start with me traveling all the way to NTU to settle my bank loan *geez, why did I have to queue?* today as I couldn't do it yesterday because I did not bring my passport *heyloo... the lady did not tell me this at all*. So, I finished the business and headed to Lee Wee Nam library to find Lele.

Hey yeah... Nophie and I finished reading the Indonesian book, Kambingjantan, in a few days time. Pretty fast heh! Lai..lai..lai.. we welcome more books!

We talked for a while and then I had to go to our AIESEC NTU booth. It was our 2nd day of Recruitment Fair in NTU. I quickly packed my Chicken Curry Don and headed there. Met the EBs and members, and even Siew Yik-NUS-, Kenny-SMU- and Celine -SMU-. Cool man! I love it when we are there for each other :) B.O.N.D.I.N.G hahaha

And then Lele came to visit the booth. OMIGOD, she just received So You Think You Can Dance season 3 episode 1 - 17. Wahahaha surely, I copied all them onto my external HDD. Thanks muchie Lele!

But the greatest satisfaction came during the NTU Welcome Tea. The OC deserves a round of applause. The Exec Boards and @ers were so helpful and encouraging, the crowd was crazy enough, and we had Cecilia, Tong, Devi, Jing Wen, Reinhard, Celine, Alina to pay us a visit *and some of them presented too*.

I like the feeling when I knew I had done my best. My presentation was a bit technical coz I covered what AIESEC is, AIESEC Experience, our culture, our learning, and a lil bit of my own @XP. I tried my best to make it fun and easy to comprehend, I hope they understood me well enough *haha*. It's just great to be able to help out and contribute still, despite my fresh Alumni status. I love the feeling, the bonding, the lame jokes, the rollcalls on the stage, the free banana fritters and curry puff *hihi* and the chance to meet some more senior @ers. It's really great to see you guys there ^^

Ah.. anyway, I had my Bahasa Indonesia test today. It was FUN. The senior stewardess is from Indonesia too and she's very friendly. We even talked about the job and she gave me some advices and shared some stories too. She has been in S*A for 11 years. WOW... It was so comfy to talk to her that I feel like I was actually talking to a friend of mine *serious mode*. "It's just great to be able to speak Indonesian and meeting someone who speaks your language too," she adds. COOL!!

So, how was the test itself?

Selamat siang Bapak-bapak dan Ibu-ibu, tanda sabuk pengaman telah dipadamkan. ....

I had to recite the whole paragraph that she read out, pretending I was making an announcement onboard. Hoohoho.. I nailed it down.

"It's perfect. Convincing and confident, and this is what we're looking for." *smug face*

Okie then, she said she would help us to process it faster *It may take up to 2-month for Indonesians acc to her*. So, I can only say THANKS MUCHIE, and see you soon.

What a great day!

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Wednesday, August 08, 2007

k.i.s.s. or m.i.s.s.

To: S**b @

Haha I juz kissed u like wat I did in Ukraine. Great welcome tea ^^



From: S**b @

Haha! Thanks for e kiss.. It came as a surprise but it was good.. Thanks for bringing in vibration at e welcome tea..



... and that's how much I miss Ukraine *aihh...

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Monday, August 06, 2007

bye bye

Learning how to let go... again

and it's not an easy task

not to mention how it hurts to do so

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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

juz three

Oh bozhe bozhe...

Shub tagged me long time ago and I didn't realize that *I'm so sorry Shub. I was in Ukraine then and there was no regular internet connection, so I didn't check your blog as frequently. Now, here it goes...

Three things that scare me:
1. Being lonely: I like having my own private time where I can self-reflect and enjoy no one's company, but I don't want to grow old and feel lonely *it's in the mind, I know*. Still...
2. Show me a pool of blood and I'll faint in a split second.
3. I gotta agree with Sharon in terms of 'being expressive', especially when it involves another party. It's never been a part of me and well... I don't know when it will be although I hope I could have a bigger scoop of that

Three people who make me laugh:
1. My sister: her actions and crazy facial expressions gets two thumbs up from me
2. My friends: I just can't split them into different entities. They do cheer me up, give the lamest jokes on earth, act in silly way and ready to take random pictures with me
3. ...

Three things I love:
1. Travelling: One of my dreams is to travel to more countries/places than the number that's appeared on my ID card (i.e.: age). This will be much better if I had great company, great music and movies and enough money to spend *hehehe
2. Meeting people and learning things from them (culture, life experiences, knowledge, etc), so I like being accompanied by great people and sharing while learning from them. Therefore, if we couldn't afford to meet physically...virtually would do good too
3. Eating: Delicious food and beverages, not too oily, no exotic food and with some chili please

Three things I hate:
1. Being miserable: For not doing something or doing it the wrong way, regretting, feeling guilty, being incapable of doing something, ... and missing someone
2. Intolerant people: helloo....life is not about you yourself! Give us some space...
3. Pretentious people: If I like then I like, if I don't...I'm sorry I can't pretend that I like you. Period. This includes back-stabbers *don't pretend you are nice and innocent, coz you are NOT

Three things I don't understand *Again...I simply has to agree with you, Sharon:
1. Myself: Being a woman is complicated. To add that, a Cancerian is complex too. If I don't even understand myself, how could others? Geez...
2. Love: Why does it happen when you least expect it? Why it brings happiness yet it hurts at the same time? Why and how does it start? How do I know if he's the right one? How can I possibly be in the same situations again and knowing it'd never happen? Why...
3. Life: It's just a puzzle for me to figure out. Enjoy!

Three things on my desk:
1. A 4-year old PC *still running but need to upgrade its memory and HDD haha
2. A 9-month old Casio Exilim *precious precious...
3. Mobile phones *just took my mom's NOKIA mobile haha and my own Panasonic

Three things I am doing now:
1. Listening to my playlist
2. Typing this
3. Missing 'you'

Three things I want to do before I die:
1. Make at least one of my dreams come true
2. Bring my parents for a travelling trip
3. Being in love without regret

Three things I can do *waks...this is tough:
1. Being supportive and cheering *really cheering..my voice is LOUD enough haha
2. Dancing *no particular style...just moving haha
3. Making hand-made cards
I'm like jack of all trades but king of none...

Three things you should listen to:
1. Family and friends' advices and suggestions: Think and consider 'em...but decide what's best myself
2. Nice slow songs with meaningful lyrics that suit my mood
3. My inner voice ;)

Three things you should never listen to:
1. Those words that are meant to belittle you, make you depressed and feel worthless. Mistakes are a part of learning process, take it easy. Learn and move on.
2. Silly excuses to justify someone's actions *It's your choice...
3. Rumours and gossips about yourself: I learn to stop listening to these craps. You can't satisfy everyone... so let it be.

Three things I'd like to learn:
1. Hip-hop dance
2. Cooking and baking
3. How to be a better person: by knowing myself, others and life more

Three Favourite Foods:
1. I like all sorts of -balls: fishballs, meatballs, cuttlefish balls, shrimp balls...etc
2. Spicy and soupy food *not too cheesy, too much dairy products, too strong unknown smell and too oily
3. Mom's cook...the best

Three beverages I drink regularly:
1. Plain water
2. Tea: Green tea, Chinese tea, ...
3. Juice *missin Ukraine's juice..

Three TV shows I watched as a kid:
1. Doraemon: Every Sunday morning haha
2. Sesame Street: Great show...learn alot of things from this
3. can't remember...huhu

Three books I read as a kid:
1. Japanese manga borrowed from friends *it's too costly for me ^^
2. A series of books 'Do you know...' *it's like explaining why things happen in a certain ways..
3. Textbook from schools *haha..what else?

Three people I would love to tag:
1. Nophie
2. Yap *eh...send link elo dunk....ilang lagi..
3. whoever is free enough to respond hee...

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Friday, July 27, 2007

and I miss you so

This song was first heard when I was in Orlovschina 'Starry' summer camp. It was the song for the 'White dance' where a guy/girl asks their loved one to dance with them (or anyone else).

It is really sweet, and I still think it is. And everytime they played this song, I always smiled to myself and suddenly the feeling just went cuckoo. Just like when I heard 'Wish you were here'.

So, here it is 'When you're gone' by Avril Lavigne :)

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

Chorus:
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah


****

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.”

Miss you heaps :)

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Monday, July 23, 2007

wish you were here

That day when I took the ferry ride from Kabatas, Istanbul to Andalar, the Princess Island...

someone on board sang this song... yes, he did sing the ONE and ONLY English song among the numerous Turkish songs he sang...

and yet, what I heard was only this... 'WISH YOU WERE HERE...'

nothing else.


I googled it, and maybe... just maybe...

this Pink Floyd's Wish You Were Here was the one.

I wanted to ask him, but he left before I opened my mouth.

Yeah... how this line could change my whole mood... and I seriously wish

WISH YOU WERE HERE :)

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Friday, July 20, 2007

crazy lil me

MISSIN YOU ALL HEAPS!!

I'm missing my family in Ukraine but I also miss my family in Spore and Indonesia.
I'm missing Ukrainian dishes but I also miss noodles and chili in Spore and Indonesia.

I'm getting crazy

Arghhh....


I'm reaching Spore soon... (it's 3.25pm, not 10am).

ps: Do I gain weight here?

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

I'm missing you....like crazy

It's killing me...

what should I do?

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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

miss

MISS YOU ALL HERE

Miss the sisterhood. Pheebs, how's HK?

Miss my Jdorama and Kdorama

Miss spicy food

Miss noodles and soups

Miss reading newspaper and magazines

Miss shopping trip to Msia

Miss taking MRT

Miss Starbucks' Frappucino

Miss chatting on MSN till early morning

Miss 23-hr Internet connection

Miss talkin to u all again...

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