Yah, I know you love my presence too. But I wouldn't disturb you during exams.
I miss you...
You know I never too far away
...
Yeah, I know you're always there. Thanks.
Miss you too!
Welcome back mellow!
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Don't Walk Away ~ Bethany Joy Lenz I could never leave you Even you if you asked me to I could never say goodbye And make you cry
I could never stumble With you walkin by my side I could never love you More than I already do
So don't walk away Don't walk away Don't lie, tell me that youre gonna stay Please don't walk away
If I made a promise I would stay by your side Its only the beginning I love you
So don't walk away Don't walk away Don't lie, tell me that youre gonna stay Please don't walk away
Please dont walk away When all the road is dark and dreary You know my nature does not sway This disposition must be washed away forever So please don't walk away Please don't walk away Please dont walk away
But I could never leave you Even if you asked me to No, I could never say goodbye Or make you cry
It's almost 3 months away, but I still miss my International Congress in Poland deeply.
Miss the kia-su mode just right before break or meal time *we would get ready at the back of the plenary to avoid long queue..hihi Miss the lunch and dinner queue *altho we're the first few but still... Miss the silly jokes we shared about the rice *its Gigantic and tasteless! Miss those tons of 'Good Morning' *500plus representatives from 95 countries, why not? Miss the stupid room-party *reminds me of those steamed-crab faces Miss the late-night parties and dances *never been to so many parties before Miss the 'rescue team in action' *Thanks guys! Miss the hugz *aih aih... Miss storming into your rooms and bug you guys *haha...sowi yar Miss sharing late night stories *ahh roomie, how are you doing there? Miss those potatoes, bread and meat *not too much of everything ok Miss those night walk to the mart at the petrol station just to buy some snacks *hiks hiks Miss gettin to know another friend *and some grat pick-up lines Miss the freezing cold windy weather *and how the three of us trembled all the way to the plenary Miss walking to the water depot and talking rubbish *remember dear? Miss those random crazy shots *yeah, Diana the camera girl Miss doing rollcall every morning *from English to Chinese to Malay to Hokkian Miss singing karaoke during our trip back to the dorm after Gala Dinner *cmon bebe, we're the Idols Miss teasing the others *wakaka Miss learning new languages *and ended up learning the wrong language Miss seeing you in each and every session *wink wink where are u? Miss calling you Pha-Bo ^^' Miss poking u while you're day-dreaming *hehe pizz ar Miss my new nickname 'Daniel' *from all nicknames...why Daniel you wonder? Miss working in groups *and see how these people work...fun and irritating too Miss those Chocolate bars during break *and store a few more inside my bag - provision Miss the yummy ice-cream *wat else can I say? Miss sharing my food *sharing is caring...that's what I learn hehe Miss sharing the umbrella during the rain *haha...she's such a sweet girl Miss those sweet lil gestures *aihh... Miss your warm smile, dear angel!
... ... Wow...you look different ^^ So Hip! *yeay Unique *wink wink Is that a wig? *bonk Looks like Dora -the explorer- *huahuhaua Looks like a doll *sheepish Is that a helmet? *hiyattt I can use a bowl and help you cut it *thanks..that's so kind of u Sooo 70s *let's dance bebe OK wat!! *haha so farniee Looks nice ^.* Waks..so short *back to hi-skul mode ... ...
. . . Kring...kring... . . . Halo! Mbak, mami ada? Oh tunggu bentar ya Yen. Iya. . . Halo anak manis, ada apa? Gapapa. Baru selesai interview. Gimana hasilnya? Hehe...ga dapet. Katanya wa masi sekolah, jadi mereka ga bisa offer kerja, kan ga bisa ikutan training segala macem and 6 bulan dari sekarang tuh masi lama. . . . Aihh....shucks!
I need to choose: study or that dream job. And I definitely can't forgo my final semester for this and they know that. It's as though 'we're offering you a job but you reject it. So, we'll keep you in view and when you graduated you contact us and we'll see from then on'. Thanks people, that really made my day. So much for a dream job huh!
I deprived somebody else's opportunity to get this job and no one told me that I shouldn't been there that 'early' in the first place. Why didn't anyone tell me that straight on my face when I applied? Why should I go for 5 rounds before you shattered the whole thing? It's not one, BUT five. Shucks!
**aR**: - To love because it takes a lot for me to give my heart to someone... or ... maybe because i know i am already very lovable.. haha Agree! Both part haha*yey..I am lovable....fell of my chair
*s*a*: - To love you can't force other ppl to love you so it has to start from you though it's good to be loved :( Start from oneself!! Cool. Make things happen rather than wait for it to happen :)
*h*e**: I want to have the ability to love ppl, they might not love me back, but it's okie, and if u talk abt r/s [ref: relationship], there's never a balance.. it's always titled, just depends on how much It hurts when they don't love in return, but better love and lost than nothing at all.
*u**: - To be loved soalnya kalo to love tapi ga ada respon, kita sakit atiii... kaloo be loved, kita seneng, ada yang merhatiin, ada yang care [coz if loved but no respond, it's heartbreaking. If 'be loved', we'd feel delighted, there's someone who pay attention and care about me] But what if we were the ones who don't love them in return, isn't it heartwrenching for them too?
*r*i*: mending [prefer to] be loved deh... in that way, i know that i have been loved and i can give my love back in return Live life to the fullest. Appreciate and cherish what you have :)
I**a*: dicintai orang, dan kamu menjadi pusat dari jaga rayanya, akan terasa lebih indah [to be loved. And you're the central of his universe, everything will be much more beautiful] Nod..nod...nod..
*o**: Actually both are impt for me, If I have to choose one... I will get loved to someone. because, If someone like me, I could love her^^; Learn to love in return? Will it be that easy?
Me? well... I received this question a few times some time ago. And I forgot what was my respond back then. But.... In life, I prefer to give than to take.. *altho I dun mind to be the receiving end AT times* So, maybe I'd be happy to love as **ar** puts it nicely up there. I'm not the kind who love easily, but I do CARE.
Yes...I do acknowledge the pain when love doesn't reciprocate... or when it does reciprocate but someway somehow things just deter them from uniting. Still, the best is to love and be loved in return. But when it doesn't... I'd prefer to Love.
Hm... so If I chose to love, and he chose to be loved to love back... does it make sense? ^^
What's your stand?
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10.15 Woke up *okay, I am such a pig 10.40 Finished shower and sat in front of the pc checking my emails 10.55 Prepared to go to NYC for *scape briefing 10.57 Postpone my meeting to 7pm coz I need to view some condos
11.15 Checked another email *lazy bummer 11.28 Ate 2 slices of whole-grain bread 11.35 Rushed to the bus stop *Oh no...I am late!!
12.52 Walked out of Sommerset MRT Station and headed towards NYC13.02 Saw Cholid outside the NYC 'cabin' so went to chat awhile 13.15 Entered the 'cabin' and prepared for the briefing 13.35 Waited for more people to come *tick tack tick tack 13.42 Started the briefing *yeay* Don't I look pro? wakaka
14.00 *scape tour
14.25 Returned to the 'cabin' and Q&A
14.35 Goodie bag giveaway
14.45 Meeting with NYC again *shed some darkness hoho
16.00 Kud2 called, "See you at the entrance at 4.30 k"
16.15 Left NYC and rushed for a cab
16.25 In the cab towards Maplewood, Bukit Timah
16.40 Yuuhuu...how to get inside the block?
16.50 Hi Uncle, I am coming to view your condo *hehe
17.10 Headed towards Springdale, another condo
17.30 Wahh...this is so far away from civilization
17.40 Hm...looks nice, but just too far and so inconvenient
18.00 On the bus towards Orchard
18.37 Alighted at Lee Meridien coz I thought the bus won't stop at Dhoby Ghaut *cheyy...
18.49 Reached the MRT Station *phew...it's tiring ok!!
18.52 Oh no..the train has yet to come...huhu better SMS them saying 'I'm gonna be late'
19.10 Arrived at the MRT station and the two 'stooges' were waiting for me 19.20 Dinner time....OMG, I was starving! 19.35 Crap...crap...crap... 19.47 Still crap...crap...crap... 19.52 Paid the bill and let's go to work 20.00 Meeting started to make it short... we finished at 22.05 *yey, we are on time
And therefore, we took some 'family pictures'...
Let me introduce y'all
Welcome to the Team
*One more family member wasn't there, Andrey from Russia
L-R: David - Canada, Dolphin Willie, Diana - Indo, Adam - UK
See our names?? It's ADDA, DADA, A2D2, D2A2, Dave-Dee-Dam-Drey *haha
Get Up Close and Personal
Adam Cleevely from Loughborough UK *am I spelling it right? A young chap, not yet 20 Crazy, FUN and super duper friendly
David Liem from Victoria, Canada well...he's more than his age definitely always willing to learn and optimistic and positive of life Indonesian and South American blood *haha Indo is everywhere
Diana Dawidson from Medan, Indonesia Dolphin Willie from Victoria *don't play play ar!! Or I sm*ck ya wakaka
It was hilarious to play around with Mac's built-in camera haha we should have done this more often guys!! And yeah..we nailed down the backbone of our session for AIESEC in Singapore National Leadership and Development Seminar and I gotta say I am really excited to be part of the team.
BRING IT ON bebe!
ps: Feel like I dont have any more paper to go... what?? ONE more? awhh..okei -__-' pps: These were the last pics taken before I had my hair cut *wakaka am a kiddie now ppps: Still need those luck and prayers k pppps: Ganbatte ne!! AZA!
And.. another silly thing you can experience in hall
Someone's 'revenge' by hanging two pairs of jeans on the neon lamps
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Those are our Step Up ticket stubs
Just an OK movie for me!! Still cant beat You Got Served! Sigh.. bye bye $9.5
ps: Had my hair cut AGAIN!! haha can't believe that it's almost 3 months since the last time I had it cut. Well...this time round, I look like a kid...at least I think so.
02. What are you doing?: : chatting and definitely updating my blog -___-''
03. Thinking of Anyone?: : haha...u remind me of that!
04. Are you Happy/Blur/Sad etc?: : BORED!!
05. Why?: : Just bored...and this stupid zit is sooo annoying
06. What is the last thing you ate?: : McChicken *yah..I know its unhealthy, but well.... no time to grab a proper dinner mah
07. Last thing that you've heard that made you cry?: : well, I was kinda teary when I watched Step Up this evening. You know the scene where Nora's mom said that she still remembers when Nora first started her dance class...aihhh *Miss my Mom ...
10. Whats the last movie that made you cry?: : teary - Step Up *OK review from me...still prefer 'You Got Served' : cry - can't remember. Let's put One Litre of Tears here *must watch!
12. Who do you wish to be by your side?: : family, friends, my inspirator, motivator, and those I care most!
13. Regret anything in this month?: : why din I kidnap the invigilators? *wakaka
14. Did you fall in love/out of love in this month?: : hm...processing...loading...
15. Who was the last person you talkedto?: : dad on the phone, patrick on MSN
16. Who was the last person you hugged?: : ahh.. Pheebs *thanks for accompanying me k. Your support is my strength
17. Who was the last person you sms?: : adam bro
18. What did you dream of today?: : Have yet to sleep for today
19. Who can make you laugh?: : I always laugh, don't I? haha
20. Who always takes care of you?: : those who care....please smile now ^o^
21. Anyone you know is in pain?: : You'll grow stronger :)
24. What happen?: : life is a learning experience too
25. What do you wanna do before you die?: : make sure I do contribute back to the society k. : wanna say that... I do care for you : take my last breath
26. What song is stuck in your head?: : none none none
27. What song are you listening now?: : none none none
28. Worried about anyone?: : ha ha..
29. What age do you wanna get married?: : used to be 23 *wakaka...but I dont think it's gonna happen haha : hm...when I find my One
30. How many children do you want?: : 3 is great... same as my family *yay
31. Where do you wanna go forHoneymoon?: : Venice is awesome dear... or we can go to visit Italy too since it's so near...hmm wat about Europe then, we don't wanna spend so much just to visit Italy right? Ah..can we drop by at Rusia then? *wakaka....okei, yeah we are broke honey!
32. Any plans in this 2 month?: : For sure. : Job Interview, Exam, FYP, AIESEC stuffs, workout plan, reading my novels, xmas gifts and cards, wahh...
33. Describe a perfect wedding?: : Happy and everlasting couple :)
34. Describe a perfect Date?: : Sweet small lil gesture is important *Imran..learn the lesson! haha
35. Where would you like to go for Holiday?: : Anywhere else not in my visited list. Vietnam, Taiwan, India, Canada, Maldives, etc. : Okai..I really dun mind going to Japan, Korea, Hong Kong and the European countries again...hiks hiks
36. Do you play instrument?: : what about knockin the pans?
38. Do you have a band?: : i have a band-age *hihi
39. What song do you want to listen to?: : the one that suits my mood
40. Wish you could die?: : Hellooo...you're kidding me right? Life is too beautiful to let go.
41. Do you give up easily?: : At times life can be rough for sure...but well, I shall commit to what I said and promised. Go for it!!
42. Do you know anyone that acts like a kid?: : Of course. Kids act like a kid, don't they?
44. Do you know anyone that is rude?: : Interesting personality, but can be tough to understand at times *bonk
45. What's the sweetest thing anyone ever done?: : those sweet small little things count... A LOT!! *sheepish
47. Any sweet unforgettable memories with your Ex?: : why not?
48. Honestly.. Which Ex did you love the most?: : Aiyoo..let bygone be bygone
49. Who do you want to be hugged by?: : the one who give the warmth ^.*
50. Are you enjoying life?: : YUP....nod nod nod nod nod
So, here's my CS438 groupmates. Pic was taken after our final deadly presentation on revitalizing NTUC FairPrice. So, we came out with Value at Home concept [affordable pricing while shopping at a familiar cozy setting -HOME] *see how casual we were...We were at Home mah!!
L-R: Sam, Dee, Jo, Kay, Nor and Angie. NO guys heh!
Yah..just wanna share this. Fun time working with the girls and I get to know them so much better too *and those gossips haha
Four years ago, I had a bet with my hi-skool teacher. A teacher that I used to dislike, but ever since my exchange trip to Japan with him as the supervisor and organizer, I learned to know him more and we became friends. But this is not the point... *hihi
I was complaining to him about how I was so unprepared for my Unified Chinese Exam [UEC - equivalent to A level] when out of the blue he said, "If you scored more than 5As, I'll treat you in a nice restaurant." I was too pessimistic that I negotiated for 3As.
A big NO was thrown on my face *wakaka
In the end, I scored more than that. But the treat hasn't been realized till now. I am fine with that as his trust over me is much more precious than a nice meal. I guess I was LUCKY, considering I went for a Genting trip a month before the exam to support my friend's singing competition [while my classmates started studying since the beginning of the year].
It happened again, one night in February when I was checking my email. I received an offer from NTU *yeay* and it was for my first choice of faculty *yeay yeay*. I guess I was darn LUCKY that I got what I want.
But then again, I don't consider myself LUCKY just because of the big big things that happened, are happening, happens and will happen in my life.
The sweet small little things do brighten my life.
MSN chatting: Ah...Test gue besok, doain ya! [My test is tomorrow. Pray for me yar :)] Everyday! *smug*
SMSes: when you need someone ... to be there for you ... I will just sit ... right beside you! MOVE A LITTLE BIT LAH, SO I CAN SIT!
my AIESEC sugarcubes that never fail to bring back my smile: "... you always wake me up haha. ... stay in the same room with you is just like a family" "... Really admire your passion, good spirit and great sense of fun!"
The endless support and encouragement that I receive. From JIA YOU, All the best, Take care, Aza aza fighting, you can do it, G'luck ya, pasti aku doain, and so on and on.
From smiles, taps on my shoulder, listening ears, hugs, hands that ready to lift me up, ...
I AMALUCKYGIRL!!
Ahh..and you know what? I am GRATEFUL that I have my angels looking after me ^.*
ps: I really need that LUCK next Thursday, so please stay my dear angels.
pps: Two scary papers are over. Don't ask me how they were, I won't think about them haha
Understanding - how far will you go to be understanding? Caring - Show it... or else how does she/he know? Forgiving - why must it be frozen? so that we're numb from all the 'things' that happen Unsalted romance - tasteless? Hugs - thanks, that's so sweet *muahaha Sweet kisses - I shall refrain myself from giving false comment and impression Love - BUNCH BUNCH BUNCH and ENDLESS please! *wakaka
*Abrakadabra...alakazam... and yah, please make him special!! lol
Received this email from a friend and it's meaningful. So, I shall share this with those I care.
Read, comprehend, reflect and contemplate. Life is A Gift There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears. He later wrote a letter to her saying, "Just take care of my eyes dear."
This is how human brain changes when the status changed. Only few remember what life was before, and who's always been there even in the most painful situations.
Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.
Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who walksthe same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.
Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, And fulfill it. :-)
A morning gathering at Hall 16 to pack the exam wishes
A pack of yummy Lemon Chicken rice for lunch
A grande size Caramel Frappucino
Added up with ...
A 4.5-hour project meeting
It kills!!
ps: 10 days to my first exam, yet I still have 1 presentation, 1 essay, 1 FYP report, 1 full-fay conference by National Youth Council, 1 *scape briefing for FYP, and a job recruitment. Yay... all the best all!
My Indonesian Orientation Camp Main Committee 2004/2005. This was our post-Get Together Day outing. A yummy steamboat buffet at Seoul Garden and continued with rounds of bowling championship *haha...and I lost shamelessly!
Of course, a great event is supported by its determined and enthusiastic members. My Programme Officer team was beyond words. We sailed through more than 80 hours of meeting, crazy juicy and creative ideas, stress that killed and still.... the spirit STAYS. Darn a great time back then *missin those nights and days of meeting and meeting and meeting*. Waks..I am addicted to meetings??
Again...my senior camp this year for the Get Together Day. This was taken at the recently refurbished Clarke Quay. I like the design n style. Let's give The Hulkas a round of applause. These people were the lucky senior attach for The Hulkas *hehe :)
See...I never miss a single chance of getting involve in my Indonesian Orientation Camp - get Together Day. It's just too hard to let go.
1st year: participant. Made was the President *hihi*. Succesfully gotten myself the most vocal 'ternyolot' title from Made *hiak hiak. 2nd year: Programme Officer Maincomm, inc harge of Sports Games with Adrianto. Get wet with us! 3rd year: Group Leader for 'Haqim Bau' with Papi Ainun. Man..I really love this team, annoyingly glued and bonded and LOUD. Won 'THE LOUDEST' group award. 4th year: Group Leader for 'The Hulkas' with Papi Anton. A mixed of unpredictable group of people. From shy, loud, crazy, creative, vocal, ... And again, we won the award for Sports Games. It's H to the U to the L to the K A S... Hulkas Hulkas Hulkas Huh!
Next, I miss my South Korea trip with mum during school holiday back in June 2004. Yummy beef, gorgeous vista, pretty Korean girls, fashionable fashionistas, irresistable heels, curly hair and many more... . Want it again! Slurpee.. I love Korea.
And these people... remind me how I love Korea. But I do love them more! GOSH...you are all unbelievably amazing. Thanks for opening my eyes and heart in a way that I never thought I would. Bring it on yay. ^.^v
MISS.. MISS.. MISS...
Arghh...guess pre-exam stress is haunting me.
Shh....I have a GREAT GREAT news for my AIESEC in NTU. The excitement even exceeds my own Final Year Project...weirdo!! Toldja later or check my AIESEC in NTU blog.
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul